It’s been crickets around here the last few days.

I would imagine many of you would love to hear how SNAP went.

And I will share…tomorrow?

I’ve just been a little on the distracted side.

You see, heading home from Los Angeles after picking up the kids from my mom, I stopped at a Wendy’s to grab a quick lunch and make a bathroom stop.

To find blood.  Bright and red.

I continued the drive home.  2 more hours.  Nervous.  I didn’t even mention it to Andy on the phone.  I guess I just wanted to pretend it didn’t happen.  Totally wrong response, but logic isn’t always as strong as fear.

I laid on the couch and drank lots of water once I got home.  This was a Sunday, so I was weighing the options of waiting until morning and go into the doctor’s office, or head to the ER.

One was 12 hours away…the other had lots of dollar signs attached to it.

I hate that we have to make decisions based on money.  I hate money.  So gross.

I laid low all afternoon and had no more bleeding episodes.  Until 11:00 p.m. after falling asleep on the couch and finally heading up to bed…there was more blood.

Called my doctor, who suggested I go to the Emergency Room.

He called ahead for me.

I didn’t have to wait in the lobby…they took me right up…to my own private room that had a sign with my name on the door.

That’s when I really panicked.  I mean, did that mean they were ready to admit me???

I cried the whole way to the hospital.  Convinced that there were only two possible outcomes from this experience: my baby would be dead and I’d be adding “stillborn” to my resume.  I immediately made a mental note to make sure someone called Lisa Maksoudian…a local photographer who is a NILMDTS photographer (or at least I think she used to be).  Clearly my brain goes crazy places.

Outcome #2:  he would be born at 27 weeks, 6 days….NICU time, and likely more special needs…which overwhelmed me beyond belief.  TWO kids with special needs?  I almost hyperventilated just thinking about that.

OR, if there was a third outcome, it was that I would be on 12 weeks of bedrest.  Which, as you can imagine with three other littles (and no family nearby) it would have been…difficult to say the least.

No matter what, I reasoned, this was gonna suck.  A lot.  A lot.  A lot.

But God wasn’t ready for me to have Walter on Sunday.  Or to take him home to heaven.  Or even to lay me out for three months.

Because the minute the nurse got me hooked up to the monitors, he was kicking and rolling and somersalting in there something fierce.  In fact, he was probably the most active I’ve ever seen.

“It’s like he’s rearranging furniture in there!”  quipped the nurse.

He would kick the monitor.  Hard.  She moved it to the other side of my belly.  He’d scurry over there and kick it again.  Move again.  Kick.  Apparently he isn’t a fan.  Tough life kid.  Suck it up.

Two hours later, she discharged me.  Sent me home on “limited physical activity”.  In my exhausted stupor I didn’t really ask what that meant, so I’m just taking it ultra, ultra, ultra easy the next few days until my next doctor appointment on Thursday when I can ask what that specifically means.  My mom is coming up to help out with the kids for a few days too.  I feel fine and there haven’t been any other bleeding episodes, but until I can chat with my doc, I’m operating under “better safe than sorry” mode.  I’m probably being overly cautious, but after two miscarriages, I’m okay with being neurotic.

So what caused the bright red surprise?  The nurse thinks that all the walking I did at the conference center, while hauling around a big bag with my iPad, camera, notepad, etc. was too much for my body.  Plus, I probably didn’t drink enough water.  No bueno.

“I wouldn’t call this a scare…but definately a warning from your body.  Take it easy.  Sit a lot.  No carrying around your kids.”

Ha.  Would now be a good time to mention that one of my kids has CP?  Yeah.  Thank the good Lord she can crawl.

So, anyhoo…I’m laying low for a few days.  My house will look like a war zone.  Laundry may eat us alive.  But Walter’s got some baking to do…and that’s all I care about right now.

You know, it’s a real miracle anyone is born.

And for the record, Walter and I will have words when he makes his appearance.

Not cool, kid.  Not cool.

Is 3 hours old too young for a timeout?  Kidding.  Kind of.

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...

I'm a mom to four. A wife to one. I believe in story. I love telling you about mine and would love to hear yours. There's really no sense in wasting our suffering and not sharing in each other's joy. We're all in this together...even if it doesn't always feel like it.

Latest posts by jeannett (see all)


  1. 1

    I have no words besides a virtual hug for you!
    Karla´s last blog post ..sunny weekend recap!

  2. 2

    Holy moses, my heart was in my THROAT reading this post! I would have been freaking the hell out. Thank GOD everything is okay!
    Seriously girl, if you need help with ANYTHING you let me know…I am close and I am available…Laundry? Meals? Help with the Kids? Errands?? Stay off your feet and cook that baby!

  3. 3

    My son “Trouble” earned that name. Over and over we said, “… this kid is trouble with a capitol-T!” It kinda stuck. We still call him Trouble.

    And yes, I firmly agree with time outs for babies, even in utero. I suggest he deserves a 13-week time out, starting right now. He is NOT to leave his womb. He’s grounded.

    That’s an order.
    darcy´s last blog post ..Sweet Shot Tuesday

  4. 4

    Big gentle hugs! Prayers being said. Keep your feet up and rest as much as possible!!!!!! <3
    C.C. @ I’m On My Way ~ my journey as a Christ follower, wife, Mamma, & fibromyalgia fighter´s last blog post ..I Used to Be…But I’m Not Anymore.

  5. 5

    Gosh.. I bet you have never felt more relieved than the moment when you saw him kicking away on that monitor! So glad he is doing well in there! Take it easy, girl.
    Katy @ Live Laugh Love Craft´s last blog post ..Baked ziti

  6. 6

    Holy moly. My heart dropped when I started reading your post. Thank god that everything is alright!!!! Now take it easy!!! 10 years from now, you won’t remember the house mess or that dirty laundry mountain. But you will have a healthy Walter.
    Karri´s last blog post ..A Heart

  7. 7

    I had to skip to the end of the post to make sure everything was ok. Praying for you. Yes grounding immediately just gets them ready for life.

  8. 8

    I was freaking out the whole thing while reading this.
    I bled twice with my last pregnancy. The whole time thinking I just can’t go through this again.
    I’m so glad Walter showed off to say he’s ok!!
    Nikki´s last blog post ..Some things on late Thursday morning.

  9. 9

    oh! i’m so glad everything is alright! So so scary. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers that everything goes smoothly from here on out.

  10. 10

    Maybe wait 5 hours for the time out ;)

    So glad everything is ok – yes lay low! our bodies do have a way of warning us – so rest and let Walter bake

    Sending blessings to you and your family!

  11. 11

    I am so glad that everything is okay. And anything after one hour is good for a timeout!
    Lene Bond´s last blog post ..Forever

  12. 12

    So glad that all is o.k. (kind of), I can imagine even limited physical activity with 3 kids is pretty frustrating and not to be dismissed. When I was on hospital bedrest with my 3rd preemie I have to tell you my mind went some CRAZY places like you described. You are brave for admitting it. I have never told anyone.

    Be a good girl and let your Mom and husband take over. Nothing will be done like you would but just rest and enjoy they crazy because soon enough that 4th child is going to be there and well life will get more “interesting”. :)
    becky@oursweetpeas´s last blog post ..How did this happen????

  13. 13

    Ahh, so glad this had the ending it did!

    And just remind yourself how much kids LOVE to play in piles of laundry. They’re like indoor snow drifts. You’re not being a bad housekeeper, you’re providing your kids with creative sensory stimulation.
    Janice´s last blog post ..Highs and Lows – Road trip to the beach

  14. 14

    I was freaking out! I’m so glad everything is as it should be.

  15. 15
    Tricia Reynolds says:

    Holy crap-a-doo! I couldn’t read fast enough to get to the part where everything was ok. whew! Keep baking, Walter…keep baking!

  16. 16

    scary, friend! now sit your ish down. and hydrate. goodbye.
    Jessica Johnson´s last blog post ..Hello, 5.

  17. 17
    Melody M says:

    Take it easy!!! All three of my children were born at 36 weeks after 2 – 3 months of bedrest! It’s scary and frustrating but oh so worth it!

  18. 18

    many hugs!! i’m so glad none of those scary-sounding possibilities happened!

  19. 19

    Praise God. I am so sorry you had to endure such a scare. I am so grateful it was a scare and not any of those other outcomes. My mind is like yours, it goes to awful, dark places. Why is that, I wonder?

    Just thinking and praying for you to rest up, have things go smoothly and keep chugging water!

  20. 20

    I just want to hug your beautiful soul! So thankful that baby Walter is well! I pray that mommy’s heart can regain some peace!

  21. 21

    omgoodness jeanett! praying for you and baby wally. take good care of yourself, momma!
    amy jupin´s last blog post ..friends, family, birthdays and communion.

  22. 22

    Nothing is more important (not laundry, not dishes) than having a full term baby! Take it easy and let people help you!

  23. 23

    I’m praying for you.

  24. 24

    Stay sitting! Take it easy! x
    Selina´s last blog post ..45/366

  25. 25

    Oh my. Jeanette, I am so sorry. You take it easy and get off those feet, ok?
    Kate Eschbach´s last blog post ..Another Neighborhood Walk…

  26. 26

    You scared me. Prayers for Walter! And his mama!

  27. 27

    Oh, my gosh! I so didn’t want to keep reading — but I’m glad I did. I’m glad you’re ok. I’m glad Walter is ok. I’m glad your mom is coming to help. I’m glad you see the doc on Thursday. I’m glad you’re ok with taking it WAY easy for the next few days. And I’m praying for you, oh so hard. For you, and for Walter, and the rest of the family. Be good to yourself, and accept all the lovingkindness coming your way!!

  28. 28

    I think you’re completely ok to be neurotic enough to give Walter a time out at 3 hours old.

    I’m gonna be neurotic when next bubby arrives too.
    Kara´s last blog post ..Light up the sky

  29. 29

    Praise God you and Walter are healthy and OK. Praise HIM! What a scary moment…moments actually. You are right – getting Walter here healthy is all that matters. Take time to rest. Let the laundry and dishes pile up. Clothes and dishes are only stuff after all. In the end all the laundry and clutter and paper piles don’t matter. (I’m preaching to myself as I type this!!). All the best to you!
    Brittnie (A Joy Renewed)´s last blog post ..38 week (& 4 days) pregnancy update. . . pumpkin baby. . . or something like that

  30. 30

    Oh my word, I was so nervous reading this post! I am so glad he’s alright. I’m praying for your “taking it easy” and a healthy (calm!) rest of your pregnancy. That silly kid in there!
    Brittany´s last blog post ..Value of Your Speech

  31. 31

    I am so glad everything is ok! And I just had to comment – my own 11-month old Walter loves the name. :)
    Kylie´s last blog post ..Sunday Sunshine

  32. 32

    So thankful for teeny tiny babies and big huge miracles!
    Rachel´s last blog post ..the disability truth

  33. 33

    Oh Jeannett I am SO, so sorry. And SO glad that sweet baby is doing okay!

    And yeah. He should be grounded for sure.

    And, I know what you mean about ER copays and such. We have good insurance but still, a visit to the ER costs us $50. And I’d be lying if I said that doesn’t play into our decisions to go there or not. Not to mention there is inevitably always some sort of RIDICULOUS billing error that results in lots of mail and extra money they try to fine us.

    Anyway, love and miss you guys and so glad everything is okay!!!
    Brianna´s last blog post ..What I like to do

  34. 34

    I barely know you, so new to your spot here, and I found myself holding my breath throughout this whole post. WHEW!! Thank you Jesus, is all I can say. So glad that everything is ok and I will be praying for more “everything is ok “days to come. I really will.

  35. 35

    So glad that everything is well. Rest up mama! I have had lots of experience with the blood and ER trips. To many to count in two pregnancies. I was shocked to hear how well you were treated when your dr called ahead! I have never had such VIP treatment…I think I need to reevaluate who my drs are. I would get “you may just be losing the pregnancy…” Yeah, JUST….
    Rest as much as possible!
    Jen@mamaZEN´s last blog post ..The Pitter Patter of Little Feet

  36. 36

    Hope everything is well… Praying for a little rest and relaxation for you and your family! :)
    Emily @ BabyBerry´s last blog post ..InstaFriday!

  37. 37

    Hi there. I was trying to get a break away from preemie/High risk pregnancy blog hopping, so I started reading simple mom. I enjoyed your post on her blog, so I googled your blog. And here I am. Reliving the pain of a difficult pregnancy. It was meant for me to continue reading. My son,Luke, was born at 24 weeks. I was ordered to be on bedrest since 20wks pregnancy. I wanted to keep him in for as long as I can, but God had different plans. He was born 1lb,5oz and a lot of awesomeness. Take care of yourself. My prayers are with you.
    Michelle Baldomero´s last blog post ..MY PICTURE PAGE UPDATED!